BudaFox’s blog

I'm incomplete with my Mom and the only way I know how to get complete with someone is by writing.  Writing is good because no one bothers you, no one interrupts you and you can get it all out.  I fucking hate my mom because she gets all hyperactive about shit.

I really like VOX and I hope I get this job.  I don't have any experience in software sales but that doesn't mean I can't learn fast.  And I know I can sell.  I'm naturally full of energy and I'm a passionate person.  When I set my mind onto something, there is no turning back.  I just love this service.  I really do.  I think everyone should have this.  I think I'm going to use this service to clear my mind every morning, in the middle of the day, etc.  I just love it.  And I use a Mac computer.  They're the best.  I'm an Apple guy for life.  Talk about brand loyal.  I'm all over it. 

I'm just really frustrated right now.  I need to find a job and I'm not having much luck.  Everyone is so stuck up.  It's fucking ridiculous.  How the fuck does anyone get a job in the United States?  I swear to fucking God I'm going to move to Europe.  This is fucking ridiculous.  I'm smart.  Why the fuck is it hard to get a job.  I wish I didn't start my own business right out of college.  I wish I would have just followed the normal career path like everyone else.  Honestly, sometime it feels like the right way to go is the safer way to go.  All I want is some stability.  It seems that all I've had in my life is instability and problems.  Well at least it seems that way.  I believe in the power of writing.  It can really be helpful in clearing your mind out.  However, I wish there was always someone I could talk to because I can talk much faster than I write and thus get myself clear faster.  But such is life right?  I guess I'll just have to learn how to type faster.  I think I type very well - probably 60 wpm or something like that.  But often my fingers move so fast that I start making mistakes.  Thus it takes my speed down a few notches.  You know what I mean.  This is great, I think that more people should do this.  Writing is good for the soul.  Well at least my soul.  I suppose I can't speak for anyone else.  A math addict probably isn't too into writing for example. 

I finally dumped my girlfriend / ex-girlfriend once and for all!!!  The four year saga is done.  I declare that on this day February 4, 2008.  I have such clarity right now.  I'm clear, present, and complete about it.  I feel great.  I know it probably won't be so easy in the weeks ahead, but I'm prepared for that.  I know I have to be stubborn and stick to my choice.  I delivered the news with certainty and I am clear that I did this and it had integrity.  I'm happy and excited for the future.

Do you know that I actually perk up while I'm writing so I'm going to write some more.  This is just going to be random thoughts to purge my mind of.  Really, pay now attention to what you're reading now.  It's not even worth your time to read it in my opinion.  

I'm so glad there is the website that I can just rant and rant on like a fucking idiot and it doesn't matter.  No one is probably going to read this anyway.  Further, I realize the probability of someone reading this because I just said that is likely to increase but I'm fine with that.

Ari Emanuel of the Endeavor Agency

I want to see this film when it comes out.  www.transformationfilm.com

Almost forgotten culture icon and founder of the controversial est seminar pulls back the curtain on his life, his ideas and why he left the country.

The documentary, "Transformation: The Life & Legacy of Werner Erhard" had its world premiere at the Palm Beach International Film Festival in April 2006.

 

Werner Erhard, pioneer of the multi-billion dollar personal growth industry, breaks a long silence about his ideas, his life and the controversial program est that made him a cultural icon of the 1970's and 80's.

With exclusive and rare footage, you'll stepinside est seminars, and hear provocative interviews with peers, naysayers, family members, participants and experts. Viewers will be surprised, even shocked, at how Erhard’s course and ideas, thought of by some as strictly a phenomenon of the 70s & 80's, have permeated the very fabric of society today.

 

Two-time Emmy winner Robyn Symon offer viewers a rare insider view into the life and ideas of Werner Erhard. Now 70 years old, Erhard speaks candidly about the early days of est, the media adulation and attacks, and the ideas themselves that underpin his work.   The documentary doesn't shy away from the hard questions about his controversial program, his past, his enemies, nor the "60 Minutes" expose that prompted him to leave the US in 1991.

 

Was he a man on a mission to make a difference, or just a man out to make millions? The film debates whether it's possible to separate the message from the messenger, and takes a glaring look at how the media targets public figures - leaving us with the notion that despite what you might think of him personally, this now almost forgotten cultural leader has left a lasting social legacy of personal transformation.

 

Have you tried a Tokaji wine from Hungary?  The 2000 vintage of Aszu 5 from The Royal Tokaji Wine Company is an excellent dessert wine.  I'm not a big dessert wine guy, but this one is honestly delicious.  I paid $27 for it at 2020 Wine Merchants in Los Angeles.